Have you ever looked around you?
People seem like never investing anything on you.
You feel lone feelings, you feel like uncared.
There are times, and there is time in your life that you need one that invest on you.
Even, you need ones on whom you could invest yourself.
Then is it wrong to feel so?
I guess, that's quiet part of us. For us.
For being a human.
Sometimes things are not reciprocal.
That's normal because life supposed to has those things too.
But, life is never flat right?
So, just look on what you should really need in forms that is really godly right.
And then....
What should we do?
Try our best and pray. Be patient.
Life is like hundred times of series and chapters... So, are you ready of it?
Be honest and keep in mind.
May God bless...
Friday, January 24, 2020
Friday, January 10, 2020
No one of those selves
When you think that you have achived something, youre no one of those selves.
When you think that you have worked hard enough, youre no one of those selves.
When you think you can set up things so perfectly and thoroughly, youre no one of those selves.
When you think that people may love you, youre no one of those selves.
Really, I have the given opportunity. I have choices spread out. And every possibilities like endless parallels. Yet I have to choose and strive one I see fit. Am I having good feeling? No. So whatever I choose will never be so perfect.
Yet we have private life, work life, social life... We need to struggle in order everything just get to be alright. Not alright in that complex sense but at least in turn out to be okay.
Even if you get no friends... I literally like getting enough over this but. What needs to be harbores is to be harbores. What needs to be let go is to be let go.
Life is challenge, life is dyanamic, life is never flat i guess...
-Me
When you think that you have worked hard enough, youre no one of those selves.
When you think you can set up things so perfectly and thoroughly, youre no one of those selves.
When you think that people may love you, youre no one of those selves.
Really, I have the given opportunity. I have choices spread out. And every possibilities like endless parallels. Yet I have to choose and strive one I see fit. Am I having good feeling? No. So whatever I choose will never be so perfect.
Yet we have private life, work life, social life... We need to struggle in order everything just get to be alright. Not alright in that complex sense but at least in turn out to be okay.
Even if you get no friends... I literally like getting enough over this but. What needs to be harbores is to be harbores. What needs to be let go is to be let go.
Life is challenge, life is dyanamic, life is never flat i guess...
-Me
Sunday, November 10, 2019
Doing Good, Doing Best
Sometimes, i don't know what to do. As anyone may ever feel, life is never doing 'smooth' for long period without having some problems at least little bit here and there.
Sometimes, we get tired of our daily chores too. We need someone's shoulder to put our worries and head into. But there are times and places when we don't have anyone to act as our supporter.
Even when we consider someone, to fulfill us to be place of our pouring... It won't always come to happen or it maybe just something irrational of us. Imagination of our mind longing for heartfelt rest.
So yeah. at that point of time we should keep ourselves vigil and awake, to be sober all the way.. And, do the realistic things we should do. irrational desire will only creating false fantasy but it doesn't mean that there are some of our dreams, the good ones, that couldn't come true
For myself,
11th of November 2019
P.S: with love
Sometimes, we get tired of our daily chores too. We need someone's shoulder to put our worries and head into. But there are times and places when we don't have anyone to act as our supporter.
Even when we consider someone, to fulfill us to be place of our pouring... It won't always come to happen or it maybe just something irrational of us. Imagination of our mind longing for heartfelt rest.
So yeah. at that point of time we should keep ourselves vigil and awake, to be sober all the way.. And, do the realistic things we should do. irrational desire will only creating false fantasy but it doesn't mean that there are some of our dreams, the good ones, that couldn't come true
For myself,
11th of November 2019
P.S: with love
Wednesday, September 4, 2019
Friday, August 23, 2019
Saat ku ingin datang
Saat itu ku ingin datang ke suatu perkumpulan keagamaan menemui kakak-kakak yang telah hadir pada suatu amfiteater. Akan tetapi, ku tak dapat datang pada hari itu...
Bahkan pada acara sebelumnya ku pun tak sanggup datang...
Aku tahu ini bukan hal yang seratus persen kesalahanku. Sebab aku tahu aku memiliki suatu kewajiban juga di tempat aku beristirahat dalam malamku....
Sedikit sesak dan ada rasa kesedihan di lubuk, namun semua ini aku tahu ada kesalahanku sebagai pangkalnya. Aku terlalu sedih walau sebentar pada sore kemarin... Aku tidak segera melakukan ibadah sembahyang sehingga tidak segera datang ke tempat yang berkegiatan agama tersebut sampai malam....
Aku tahu aku salah... Namun aku juga tahu bahwa apabila keadaan sudah terjadi aku harus bisa melihat dan tidak melupakan apa yang harus aku lakukan saat ini... Sedangkan keinginanku untuk datang menjadi tidak tetwujud. Tetapi, baiklah aku menata diri dan mendatangi hal tersebut segera memberikan waktuku yang benar bagi Tuhan, Penciptaku. Sebab Engkau tahu, bahwa diriku penuh banyak kesalahan dan memerlukan banyak perbaikan... Dan Engkau saja yang sungguh sanggup untuk melakukannya atas diriku. Aamiin
Ku ingin datang, dengan izinMu ku akan dapat datang pada waktu lain yang terdekat. Bukan hal yang lain.
Bahkan pada acara sebelumnya ku pun tak sanggup datang...
Aku tahu ini bukan hal yang seratus persen kesalahanku. Sebab aku tahu aku memiliki suatu kewajiban juga di tempat aku beristirahat dalam malamku....
Sedikit sesak dan ada rasa kesedihan di lubuk, namun semua ini aku tahu ada kesalahanku sebagai pangkalnya. Aku terlalu sedih walau sebentar pada sore kemarin... Aku tidak segera melakukan ibadah sembahyang sehingga tidak segera datang ke tempat yang berkegiatan agama tersebut sampai malam....
Aku tahu aku salah... Namun aku juga tahu bahwa apabila keadaan sudah terjadi aku harus bisa melihat dan tidak melupakan apa yang harus aku lakukan saat ini... Sedangkan keinginanku untuk datang menjadi tidak tetwujud. Tetapi, baiklah aku menata diri dan mendatangi hal tersebut segera memberikan waktuku yang benar bagi Tuhan, Penciptaku. Sebab Engkau tahu, bahwa diriku penuh banyak kesalahan dan memerlukan banyak perbaikan... Dan Engkau saja yang sungguh sanggup untuk melakukannya atas diriku. Aamiin
Ku ingin datang, dengan izinMu ku akan dapat datang pada waktu lain yang terdekat. Bukan hal yang lain.
Wednesday, August 7, 2019
Your destination is Lord God
When life is not so good toward you and actually life is really occupied by struggles, you know that there is one home you can reach. By being near to God the kingdom of Heaven is present within. Because 'heaven' is place near Him... It is life when we are with God. But death is condition when you are being far from God... It is death in the soul so the person is dead... But even dead body is having life when it is so fervently pray and believe in God... In deed to be righteous is to try your hardest. People sin, but people could always try. And God will always help and come to you for His lovingkindness toward us. Aamiin
Alhamdulillah :)
Alhamdulillah :)
Wednesday, July 3, 2019
Seeking place to find
Human... always search a place to find. We go from bottom and up, many of us have tried to come here and there shaped by our circumstances. After all the pains, bad feelings, or maybe trauma... human always try to seek a place that it can take rest.
We need a rest...
We need to recover....
We need somewhere to feel calm...
Human needs some real securement. As it is known, there is somehow no real or rather perpetual securement in this life. But there can always be someplace we could just get some rest and relax.
Sometimes we look for securement in other human or maybe things. But most of the time, things get change... even people change. We couldn't always get that harbour we could come to when we need it.
Sometimes, the friend(s) we have or any person it can be... just changed enough that it is no longer two ways relationship. Then by the time you will know that it is not the place we really seek.
By time we will realise that mortals and things couldn't be perpetual place that we could come to and is always there. And it just makes me realise it more that only LORD God is our resting place we find.... If we open our heart and search it... We can finally see that every negligence and leaving from our friends as example, just emphasizes up that without God we will never find the place we seek... It will always be empty, empty, and so it repeats...
Every human being has its own journey and it is alright. Every human has their own problems, some maybe similar but not as the exact copy I guess... Everyone has the right to ammend and to heal... And nothing could really stop them except themselves because God is really there after all that you will realize it at the end of journey...
It's not fast for everyone, it's not the same conclusion for everyone maybe in their every chapters... But really, when we finally realize and let go the stuffs, especially the unnecessary stuffs, then we will realize all the problems, the root, and what should we really do. I hope... experience do make us stronger and wiser. And to let itself to be reflection to be reflected (or pondered) in our most inner heart/mind. I hope so, O God. Aamiin
- the unworthy servant of God, a muslim
We need a rest...
We need to recover....
We need somewhere to feel calm...
Human needs some real securement. As it is known, there is somehow no real or rather perpetual securement in this life. But there can always be someplace we could just get some rest and relax.
Sometimes we look for securement in other human or maybe things. But most of the time, things get change... even people change. We couldn't always get that harbour we could come to when we need it.
Sometimes, the friend(s) we have or any person it can be... just changed enough that it is no longer two ways relationship. Then by the time you will know that it is not the place we really seek.
By time we will realise that mortals and things couldn't be perpetual place that we could come to and is always there. And it just makes me realise it more that only LORD God is our resting place we find.... If we open our heart and search it... We can finally see that every negligence and leaving from our friends as example, just emphasizes up that without God we will never find the place we seek... It will always be empty, empty, and so it repeats...
Every human being has its own journey and it is alright. Every human has their own problems, some maybe similar but not as the exact copy I guess... Everyone has the right to ammend and to heal... And nothing could really stop them except themselves because God is really there after all that you will realize it at the end of journey...
It's not fast for everyone, it's not the same conclusion for everyone maybe in their every chapters... But really, when we finally realize and let go the stuffs, especially the unnecessary stuffs, then we will realize all the problems, the root, and what should we really do. I hope... experience do make us stronger and wiser. And to let itself to be reflection to be reflected (or pondered) in our most inner heart/mind. I hope so, O God. Aamiin
- the unworthy servant of God, a muslim
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